Hold onto Me...

     I hold my hands up high, wondering if the pain will just flow out of my fingers. It doesnt. More pain vents into me... And then, whenever I step on that bus in the morning, whenever I see his face, the pain suddenly fades to black. There is no pain; I am numb. Then whenever we depart, he goes to his hall, I go to mine, the numbness wears off, and I am right back into feeling absolutely terrible.
     I cant even imagine to tell you in complete detail how much I like him. He just makes me happy, you know.? No one understands us, just because of our age difference. I cant stand that. The only person who understands is Rebecca because she is literally with me 24/7 and sees the real him. She is enabled to see the way we look at eachother, they things he tells me, the fact that whenever Rebecca and I go to England/Germany, he promises to stay with me forever. She gets to see HIM. Even she is amazed by him. She sees the way his dad treats him; like a dog. She cant stand his dad either. She sees everyday, his pain, his joy, his confusion. She knows it all, almost as much as I do.
     Him being my best friend and all makes my life even better. He doesnt ignore me. He tells me the truth; doesnt decieve me. It is like I am the luckiest girl to have met him when I did. And now all I can say is, I love him. He makes me forget about everyone else. He makes me go from pissed to elated. He just simply makes me happy. He is him, not anyone else. And that is all that matters to me.
Juno.