The Bold-Hearted Girl I Used To Be...

I cannot recall much before 6th grade

6th grade was when my life started

Thanks to many people.

Alex (:

Jake

John

Ethan

The whole deal.

But Alex, honey.

I love you.

And I truely appreciate all you did for me;

You truely are the best.

I know we've had our up's and downs

But in the end

You've been there.

And I love you for that. (:

<3

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And the other people on the list

Really aren't worth writing about.

Not that John isn't worth it.

I think I have written about him enough.

Enough with getting you all to pity me.

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Jake is just a douche.

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But anyways...

I suppose it is goodbye until later.

Later.

JUNO.

Tonight.

Tonight, oh tonight. I can already tell it is going to end up being rather weird. Gena's party is at 1800 hours and we were allowed to bring one person. Out of everyone to bring, I decided to bring Cary. I know I am stupid, but all I can do is hope for the best, I suppose. The things I do for him...
Anywho, I am basically prepared for the "prom". I have my dress and mask and what not. I am 90 percent excited... The other ten percent doesn't matter, I guess.
Let's see here, let's see here... What to say...
OH okay, so lets just say... How can I word this? Okay, well you remember my last post? The one that just clearly said "I am in love"? Yeah... I know you may have thought, "Oh she falls in love all the time... Just another phase of hers" but I mean, yeah... A three year phase... And I know I have said "I am over him" before, but this time, I am sick and tired of his lies. Every single word that leaves his mouth that has to do anything with me, whether it is a promise or a complement, they are all sick, nasty, little lies. And I am DONE. To be honest, I think I deserve better than him... It is kind of sad that I wasted three years on a guy who didn't even like me when we WERE dating. Makes me feel even MORE lied to. Makes me want to just shut up now and get rid of everything in my possession that has to do with him. Makes me want to HATE him... But like I haven't tried that a good thousand times...
And what's great is HE is going to the party tonight, too. And suddenly, I really don't want to go...
Juno.

It's Friday, I'm in Love -The Cure

Dear ole' Bloggees... It seems that in every entry, SOMETHING changes. Whether it is feelings or thoughts... I just feel like I am starting to bore the 6 of you to tears. Excuse me, seven people.
My point is... I am just really looking forward to something to happen. I dont even really care what it is. Honestly, I am just begging for the end of the year tests to drift to history and for the Savannah Trip to take place, considering I am suddenly rooming with a person that doesn't want to stab me in the back, quite literally...
Things haven't exactly gotten better for me, nor have they gotten worse... But, I don't know. I am just starting to get sick of this. Getting sick of everything. And almost everyone...
Juno.